Tomorrow marks 8 months since the day I quit smoking. I'm so happy that I did it. I can't say that I'm never, ever tempted anymore, because I am tempted now and then, but the temptation has gone from a smoldering, irrisistible vixen to a has-been, hacking, nasty old whore.
Last night I went to a Special-Olympics themed party, which was so much fun. We got sauced and had several Olympic events. About 2/3 of the guests were smokers. It was a little chilly out. (Austin--just not that cold very often.) I felt a little bad for them, having to sit out in the cold most of the night, but everyone had a great time tardin' it up, playing games, and laughing.
Lately I've been kinda down; lethargic and depressed and maybe overly stressed out about work. I had a job interview on Wednesday, which did not go well at all. Thursday I felt terribly depressed. I even started crying a few times in the bathroom at work.
Then Friday I started to feel better, like a weight was slowly lifting. Saturday I felt okay in the morning, then went to Target to stock up on some necessities. I went to the fitting rooms to try on a couple of pairs of pants, and got a real shock when I looked in the "rear view" full length mirror. I look terrible! I have gained about 35 pounds since July, and a lot of it was hiding back there. My skin's not looking too great, either.
Strangely, this did not make me feel bad at all. I just snapped to the conclusion that I would have to start working out and carefully watching my diet again. I actually felt better, empowered that I was not going to give up and starting to buy larger sizes of clothes.
So I think I'm going to start a new blog, entitled "Get in shape for the long haul". It's on, baby, it's on!
Something about that experience, looking in that rearview mirror, really ignited some mental dynamite. I started thinking about how I've had this defeatist attitude about work and life lately, and that's just bullshit. I'm going to put a sign on my refridgerator that reads:
"If you're feeling sorry for yourself, you need to change the way you're thinking and doing things!"
I may or may not retire this particular blog. I intend to keep at it at least until the one year mark.
Last night I went to a Special-Olympics themed party, which was so much fun. We got sauced and had several Olympic events. About 2/3 of the guests were smokers. It was a little chilly out. (Austin--just not that cold very often.) I felt a little bad for them, having to sit out in the cold most of the night, but everyone had a great time tardin' it up, playing games, and laughing.
Lately I've been kinda down; lethargic and depressed and maybe overly stressed out about work. I had a job interview on Wednesday, which did not go well at all. Thursday I felt terribly depressed. I even started crying a few times in the bathroom at work.
Then Friday I started to feel better, like a weight was slowly lifting. Saturday I felt okay in the morning, then went to Target to stock up on some necessities. I went to the fitting rooms to try on a couple of pairs of pants, and got a real shock when I looked in the "rear view" full length mirror. I look terrible! I have gained about 35 pounds since July, and a lot of it was hiding back there. My skin's not looking too great, either.
Strangely, this did not make me feel bad at all. I just snapped to the conclusion that I would have to start working out and carefully watching my diet again. I actually felt better, empowered that I was not going to give up and starting to buy larger sizes of clothes.
So I think I'm going to start a new blog, entitled "Get in shape for the long haul". It's on, baby, it's on!
Something about that experience, looking in that rearview mirror, really ignited some mental dynamite. I started thinking about how I've had this defeatist attitude about work and life lately, and that's just bullshit. I'm going to put a sign on my refridgerator that reads:
"If you're feeling sorry for yourself, you need to change the way you're thinking and doing things!"
I may or may not retire this particular blog. I intend to keep at it at least until the one year mark.
posted by Mary Linton at 6:05 AM
2 Comments:
(This is victorydance from 43things) ;)
I've been wrestling with the idea of a weight loss blog too (if you like reading them, too, I found some really good ones) but I've kind of nixed it because of my current lack of a scanner and/or a functioning digital camera. What good is a weight loss blog without pictures?
I've been all over the place with my weight since I hit puberty, but I am way above my comfort zone. I kind of had the same reaction you did when I realized how much I had gained... "Okay, I'd better do something about this" instead of massive disgust and drowning in the Ben & Jerry's. That has to count for something.
Hey victorydance!
Yeah, I've been toying with the idea of a weight loss, or you know, getting healthy in general blog. It's been such a good thing for quitting smoking, why not apply it to other goals?
I don't have a scanner or a digital camera either. Well, I have one of those cellphone-that's-a-camera's, but the quality is not great, and there's no flash. I have access to a scanner at work, but I am not one to risk scanning items of personal significance.
Oh, this is kind of cool: My Virtual Model will let you create a model of yourself, using data that you provide about your hair color, hair style, eye color, height, weight, shape, etc. It's a cool way to visualize your body at different weights. I found out that I might have a shot at looking like Charlize Theron if I lost 20 lbs or so. Could be inspiring.
Good to hear from you as always,
lenguatron
Post a Comment
<< Home